Onward and Upward

The smile truly has an awesome positive power. Clem's face has finally remembered how to smile again and all the energy around us has changed. I noticed yesterday that not only was he smiling he was actually laughing from time to time and not just at me. It seems that his digestive system is beginning to act relatively normal and the pain and urgency that he has been experiencing has subsided. I think he was afraid to mention it at first but now he is celebrating in the almost normal experiences taking place inside his gut.

As I have mentioned before the Doctors tell you little bits along the way. First they say, "We think we can cure you by cutting you up, nuking you, and injecting toxic chemicals into you." Then they say, "We think we cured you but things may not really work right again and you may elect to have an ostomy because it will just be easier." I heard the Doc say this and Clem heard the Doc say this but we never discussed it or accepted it as a possibility. Yet last week I suspect that Clem was a little bummed because he wasn't working right and he didn't know if he ever would again. He has already lived with the ostomy thing and really didn't want to go back there but there does come a time.

His step now has a little spring in it and his energy is tinged with hope again. It seems that his confidence that a normal life is still possible for him has returned. I too have been able to rip all the nasty negative spider webs away from my subconscious and join in on the trek onward and upward. His smiles have always made my heart sing.

Thanks to everyone who gave us a punch in the arm last week when we were struggling. Just wanted you to know how much it meant and that we are better and back on track again.